A little nice time with him

Hehe....Finally I got a recent photo of myself in digital format liao....A photo of me and my cousin at her birthday party but I had it cropped already. So this is how I look, a little ugly thou, especially the braces....Sigh...So in case you still don't know how I look like here is it



Well, as for the entry o today, man I would say that I happended to wake up a little early and had some breakfast before I went to the bk at my place to meet Denise and study together. Apparently, I think she was really early, at least earlier than the meeting time. So basically the day time of today was spent mostly at bk, reading through human repro and trying my best to absorb as much as possible as it was just such a maga thing. Then read some GP today also.Then we had this whole debate about how meiosis occurs and he funny thing was that towards the end of the discussion, I realized with her help that I didn't forget everything and thou I was the blur one at first, I think our position swapped at the end of it.

Then towards the evening, I went out to meet my beau for a while as usual and off cause at the usual place again but the most maddening thing was that he didn't carry his hp when he left the hostel much earlier. So the thing was that I reached much earlier and informed him of the change of time which of course he didn't get it.....sigh......

Then we had a ok kind of fun. We had a little catching session, then I finally found out today that he is afraid of tickles at specific places only....hehehe....tried my best to get him as many time, he tried grabbed my hand etc but I still managed to tickle quite a few times...haha...I win..Besides that I seriouly think that he has got some mental problem the whole of today.He keep saying me today, say a lot of negative comments about everything that I say of propose or whatever.Tho' it is jokingly but still didn't quite like it....but still we had a averagely nice time.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention one thing. He got some back arch problem near the waist and was asking me to step on his back. It was totally scary I would think caz I kind of think about what if step wrongly too hard etc, I am not professional you know.Then he was assuring me that his mother does that for him too and his mother is more than twice my weight. Then of course got step lah.......Totally scary man...but he was like so 爽, while I was so scared for him. Well, after all this is the first time I am feeling someone's spine and bones beneath me. Totally totally very very scary.

Sigh, then when I was on my way home meet Elaine from pl and well,didn't talk much.

Then with all the exams by the corner, I do know that I do not have much of any time left but I find it so hard to organize clearly what should be done first kind of thingy, very poor planning this time. Then the thing is that the study leave for my school will start next week and I totally cannot picture myself studying at bk or mac everyday. Don't know how.

Then suddenly, I was think about the prospect of studying overseas which is a very slim chance financially. The other thing is that I am not good enough for a scholarship in terms of S papers so I don't know how. Buy I do know that if I were to continue with University in Singapore, that will be the most disappointing time of my life without fail. No matter what they say of local University undergrad's life is how and how, one thing for sure, it will NEVER be as LIVELY as overseas.....A sad undergrad's life man when compared to his overseas counterpart. Sigh...... The worst thing is that I am in every way heading to this sad life direction as thou my current life is not sad enough. Sigh............

Well, don't have the time o be philosophical today... Another time?

Bursting w human repro info!!!

Man....I spent several hours earlier at Mac studying with my friend and only did part of my bio chapter! So irritating! But that is the best that I could go as I do not want to return to review much of this chapter later already......So irritated by it and my progress so blogging now for a small divergence from the continuous hours of long study............

Finally the blogskin change is done and complete, took a lot of pain and trouble trying to get it properly reselected in what you are seeing now. Credit goes to my friend Denise. Yeah I think now I will start referring to my friends with names unless its some sensitive thingy based on my personal analysis.

Oh yeah, the thingy that I wanted to mention about in my previous entry was about this conversation that I had with my classmates Shun Hua and Reuben. Well, I started the whole thing when I was asking Ruben if he was going to the prom and then much later we were talking about the prom as the last time meeting with your jc friends or classmates or whatever and thus should be seen as something that could be enjoyable and memorable and certainly a good contribution to the happier times of your jc life right? By then Shun Hua was into this topic with us. Then Reuben was saying that in class actually a lot of people don't like each other and then Shun Hua was saying that you can do nothing about such things even if you are the person involved.

The thing that was sad was that what the both of them said was true. I personally also have some people in class that I would rather not want to talk to. But don't be mistaken, I am certainly a person of little words in class and especially so if you do not hang around with me such. There are also those in class that I am quite alright with but just don't click and mind you, I do not have any ill thoughts about them. The thing is that if you don't like someone and know that you can't do anything much about seeing less of the person much, you simply just extract them out of your scope of surrounding friends etc. I guess that is natural but yet again it is sad that even within a small class population there are so much of this kind of blocking out of other people going on. Why can't everybody just be on friendly terms? Sad sad sad.....if only the utopia really exist.....I sometimes sigh and pain for the fact that we are and will always if not be further from the perfect world for nothing is meant to be perfect in this world. The worst part of it all is that you have to see perfection in imperfection in order to do many things, make many friends etc, but sometimes it's so hard. It is all in the mind.

Then my classmate Khariyah ever commented to me that I am a sadist and I sure am for I too often think about the things that make this world a very bleak place.

Then there was this thing about my friend Denise that I always find so interesting. If there was any problem bordering her, it would most likely be somehing about friendship of some sentiments about the level of being accepted in you immediate community of people. I was listening to 933 yesterday and I just think that the saying is so true, although it is meant for a bgr thingy about I think that it is also so applicable to all other human relations be it friends of acquintances, whatever you call it. here goes(in case you haven't realised, view my blog in Unicaode)(think it was something like this):

“游乐场里有很多好玩的东西，而其中就有跷跷板。跷跷板是要有两个人一起玩的， 就和一段感情一样，须要两个人的配合才能玩得高兴。当其中的一个人离开的时候，也就只剩下另一方坐在靠着地面上的这段。尽管这人势经得玩，他也永远还会呆在地面的这一段。到那时他也只有能离开跷跷板了。这就像一段感情一样，当你觉得对方已不感兴趣了，就别花费多余的力量来挽回了，游乐场还有别的人和玩具，你还能玩别的阿，不必伤心。最多就玩荡秋千，虽然是有时会觉得的孤单一人但这总比一个人在跷跷板上来的好，能随心所欲。秋千也能荡得很高而精彩”

That is the best that I can remeber. I guess I do not nee to explain further but I seriously know that this is sometimes a lot easier said then done but if you have the will power and enough determination to better your circumstance(if you are feeling unhappy about it), do something about it then. Hahaha....Shun Hua is like so gona ....when he reads this....

But yeah, about all this friendship thingy, I seriously think that ending of friendships is something of the distant past and something that only children say and do. Do not be mistaken for I am refering to ending an existingly, previously well friendship. I am sure there are some things that cause you guess to want to be friends of whichever degree and I think ending it is just stupid for you are then implying that all that you saw in the person was wrong??!

Amigos Para Siempre (friends forever)

Always try to sit down and talk about it if possible, something can definitely workout but ending a initially well development friendship certainly shouldn't be the case unless you guys have been in falsehood all along. think about it, actually, there are a lot of things that you know what you should or should not do but believe me, I am an expert at this knowing what is best or right or whatevr you call if andnot do it or twisting things a little. Well, who said that you must always play be the rules?

I subscribe to live your life to the fullest and never to look back and regret whatever you missed or already did for the past is the past, you only got the present and future. Follow you heart people, it may not be the best decision but it will be the one with the least regrets later.

nitezz

itchy business

Hey, thought I better write my blog today….don’t want to have another 1 weeks jounrnal thingy like the previous thingy.

Saturday
Nothing much that was interesting happened here. Well, was spending most of my day with my friend at bk studying or actually doing tutorials. Than we had a little outing in the evening to Queenstown shopping centre to look for the long sleeves mans top I am looking for. The criteria is long sleeves, yellow or white, Nike /Adidas /Umbro. Then for my friend, she also see some shoes there. Well, didn’t really manage to find what I wanted. There were only the long sleeves jerseys or Real Madrid, Chelsea and England that fitted the category….was just wondering what is the top that my beau so wants. By the way, if you haven’t realized, my beau in all my entries refer to one same person, my China boyfriend that is. Or are we?

Sunday
Went out with the same friend last week to go see the fireworks again and it is a different show. I woul personally think that this show was better than the last. Well, we went to Novena to look for the top again and finally I found it there but not enough mney to but but the thing is that I know what it is or looks like and know why I can’t find it. It was a Adidas factory outlet man. Well, the evening was pretty ok until towards the end. Well, my friend started telling me that I look bad in whatever I wore to ht prom about 2 years ago. She was giving comments about how the hair and the dress didn’t suit me at all and such and I was really feeling very very bad.one reason is of cause it is all the very poor remarks that I was getting and the other thing was that she waited nearly 2 years later to tell me. At this moment, I so very very not so want to go for the prom for my school this year as I know that I most probably will be wearing the same dress there and add some things to it. Weep, weep, weep………..

Monday
Well, it’s the start of the school week again and I so very much don’t want to go to school. The good news today from the principal was that she was going to let us have study leave from next Tuesday!! Yes, finally don’t need to wake up early for school, can adjust what time I want to sleep and wake up…..usually, I will turn the day to night and night to day.
Then I seriously planned to get the shirt but I was having a conversation with my beau the whole day and in the afternoon he asked to meet. It was a long discussion n yeah we meet much later that day after I studied out with my friend. Had a nice time together.

Tuesday
Really nothing here. Did do some training myself?

Today
Well, nothing much happened today. Was studying with my friend at the bk at compass point. At night like now am meddling the blogskin with my friends help. Man, I so much so wana talk some more but having a lot of mosquito bites. Write tml lah….

bye